I have been
(Shame has a hold on me.)
I still feel
(I want to know I'm okay in their eyes.)
(I hate that I get that way.)
how that works
(Am I allowed to be human?)
I never used to feel shame. I don't know if it was a coping mechanism or some sort of reaction to feeling too much of it for one reason or another, but when I first started experiencing honest-to-goodness guilt for my behaviors, I was horrified.
I let it go fairly quickly, because the part of my brain that is usually active doesn't believe in feeding that particular emotion. But I think it's alright that I acknowledge it, when it's a true emotion, when it's warranted.